Update June 2013

So, life has been rough as usual. But I'm making it through. My boyfriend is in Iowa right now, but I'm ok. He'll be back in 2 weeks. We're doing well. 8 months and going strong. Bad news though. I'm moving. Matthew hasn't decided whether he wants to come with me or not yet, but I really hope he does because there are so many more job options for him if he comes. His job at the Trolley Wing Company is ok, but it doesn't pay enough for how much he works. Back a few weeks ago, when graduation came around, I found out that I wasn't going to make it on time. I'd failed. That hit me hard, so hard that I felt unable to feel good about myself for days. I still feel so stupid, but Matthew's support has been great. He didn't graduate either and neither did a lot of our friends. A month ago though, tragedy struck my life again. My dog, Twinkie, was hit and killed by a speeding driver, who didn't even stop to see if she was ok or not. It makes me so mad to think about that and because of them, my girl is not with me anymore. :'( My other dog, Prince, howls every night because he misses her so much and it kills me inside. I hope God punishes that person for being so ignorant and cruel. I don't know how much more pain I can handle. On a happier note, I went and saw my first real concert the day after she died. It was an ICP concert. It was so epic and made me forget my sadness for a little while. I had so much fun and even though it's not really Matthew's type of music, he had a lot of fun too. Twiztid, AMB, Kung Fu Vampire, Moonshine Bandits and of course, ICP were all the acts. It was one of the best nights of my life. About a week ago, my cat had more kittens. 4, just like last time. Well, that's pretty much all I have to say for this update. Hopefully, I will be able to write about more happier things next time. Until then, cheers! xx ♥

Senior Problems...

So I know it's been a couple of months, but I'm gonna write a little update on my life. Sorry for not posting more. Haha. So, I think I have a serious case of Senioritis (the lack of will to finish assignments, do classwork, even show up at school, etc.) But I've really been working hard to make up everything. I have FORTY HOURS of community service to do because I got 8 U's in school. :(( Sigh..... don't catch Senioritis, people. It sucks having to make everything up. Haha. So yeah, that's pretty much it for now. Post again later! Cheers! ♥ xx

Update On My Recent Life

So yeah, it's been a while since I last posted...sorry about that. A lot of shiz has gone on since I last posted. :/ Good and bad things have happened. Maybe you've heard, maybe you haven't, but Tyler and I broke up in September. So I obviously was so broken inside, nothing mattered to me anymore. I spent all day hiding the fact that I was torn to pieces inside and wearing a fake smile to hide the pain I felt. It was hell on earth for me for the first 2 weeks or so. I had to fake smiles, hold back massive amounts of tears and I had to stay looking strong so I wouldn't be labeled as weak or as a drama queen that cries at school to get attention. There were a few times where I asked to go to the bathroom to avoid situations where I cried in class. Even now, it still makes me sad when I think back on memories of us together. So much went on in the almost 2 years that we were together. I've moved on now, but that doesn't mean I'm not still sad sometimes. Of course, my closest friends were very supportive and helped me out the best that they could. One of my best friends since 9th grade, Matthew, was a huge part in me moving on from the break-up. He would talk to me and hang out with me when I would have a hard day and even now, it brings tears to my eyes thinking about how supportive he was and still is. He is my rock and he has always been there with me through everything. He has always cared a lot about me and he is one of the best things in my life. And as of October 13th, he's been my boyfriend. :) He shows so much love and compassion whenever we're together, not in ways such as showering me with gifts, but by just being with me, cuddling with me when I'm cold or upset, kissing me when I'm sad. A few times, I've  just felt so down and he'll just sit there and tell me all the reasons why I'm amazing to him and it just makes me feel so much better about myself. He makes me feel like I'm worth something, like I actually matter. I know that I matter to him and knowing that makes me feel so good. I still can't believe how much he cares about me and how much I'm worth to him. It brings tears to my eyes thinking about how he's always been there. It just seems like it was always meant to be, seeing as how he was my first kiss, the first person I ever really loved. No one else makes me feel the way that he does. I've felt love for other people, such as Tyler, but not in the same way as I feel for Matt. I know that sounds really cheesy, but it's the truth. It's not just some stupid junior high crush or me just saying that because he's super gorgeous, I say it because I really feel that way. Somehow, I think deep down, I knew that we were going to end up together someday. I've grown up a lot since 9th grade and I've been through a lot since then. I've learned so much more about friends and love and just how to be a better person. In 9th grade, I think when I look back....I was the biggest asshole/bitch ever. I'll read my diary from back then and think, "What in the hell was wrong with me? I broke up with that guy just because I got bored?? WTF???" I know now how badly it hurts to just be pushed away because someone gets 'bored' of you. It sucks, a lot. If I could go back in time, I think I would tell my past self to look at herself and realize how selfish and stupid she was. Now, I think of others instead of just me. I hope that I can continue to become a better person....somehow. Thanks for reading this incredibly long post. Haha. Cheers! ♥ xx 

My Class Schedule for first semester

Here's my schedule this year!!!
1: Woodworking
2: English 12
3: Child Development :/
4: Painting
5: Medical Forensics
6: Chemistry
7: Dance 1a
8: Algerbra 2
That's it for this semester. :)

Update on my life

I know it's been a while since I last posted, but I thought I'd give this blog thing another chance. I changed up my profile a little, since most people who know me know that I'm obsessed with penguins and Kakashi from Naruto. I thought I'd make a little update and tell you all what's been going on in life at the moment. So, my senior year is right around the corner. How exciting. Haha. I really hope I get the Medical Forensics class I signed up for. Hopefully, Evans is right and I'm already on the list! Medical Forensics is basically a CSI class where you learn how to lift fingerprints, fingerprint people, take DNA swabs, take fancy schmancy pictures... you know, stuff they do on CSI. I can't wait to get my class schedule on the 17th! Yay! I'm actually excited to be going back to school so I can see my friends everyday again. I have to say I'm definitely going to miss my guitar class that I took last year and also my amazing Chinese teacher, Yu Dan Dan or as we called her, Yu Lao Shi (basically means Mrs. Yu.) I loved her so much! She was such a fun teacher and she really taught me a lot! We had so much fun in that class and her personality really brought everyone in the class together. :) I hope I get things like Food and Nutrition and Dance 1 this year. Dance is something I haven't done since I was a kid. I kinda like dancing, even though my skills are nothing to be desired. I can't even remember what else I signed up for. I know I signed up for Chinese 2, Medical Forensics, Food and Nutrition, Dance 1 and like all the generic required classes. Haha. I have been so obsessed with Instagram. If anybody is interested and if you have an iPhone or iPod, my username is KakashiFan16. :) Well, my birthday is coming up on the 29th and I can't wait! I'll be the big one seven (17)! Hooray! I wonder what Tyler has planned for me.... ? I am so impatient! I wish my birthday was already here! I ♥ presents. :) Hehe. Well, this is pretty much it for now. Hopefully, I'll think to write soon. Going to download the Blogger app on my iPod so I will remember more often! :D Bye!

Dealing with Tyler's absence

So my boyfriend recently started going to Weber Basin Job Corps. He is only able to see me on weekends and holidays and he is able the call me. He is only able to come home 1 weekend a month, until he gets to red and then it's 2. Silver is 3 and gold is unlimited. So until then I have to get used to not seeing him very often. But somehow I'm dealing with it. :) Thanks to everyone that has been supporting me with this and making it easier for me to cope with, like Symes, Sam and Kourtney. :)

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 6 DAYS!!! :D

I can't wait for my birthday!! I'm going out with my amazing boyfriend/fiance Tyler and it's gonna be awesome! :D We're going to eat Chinese food. Yay! We actually don't know what else we're doing, but we'll figure that out eventually. Haha.  Can't wait. It's gonna be the best birthday yet. :)

My Hero....

My hero right now would definitely have to be my mom's friend Elisa. She has been through so much crap and yet, she always has a smile on her face and she accepts what life throws at her, no matter what it is. I just finished reading her book, "The Golden Sky". In it, she talks about being nineteen and pregnant, having people staring at her and Ruby all the time, then about when she found out that her baby was a boy. Zeke, her son, was born with a lot of problems; a cleft lip, a hernia, all his organs in his chest and other things. I think that she's an amazing woman because if it were my kid, I would never be able to deal with all of that. Although both her and her husband found it very hard to cope with when Zeke died, she somehow made it through and still managed to have a smile on her face most of the time, even though it was hard not to cry sometimes. I cry a lot about my cousin Connor still and he's not my kid. If I had a kid born with a lot of problems and he/she died only a short while after being born, I think I would break down into depression and I wouldn't be able to come out of it. Elisa is a very strong woman in my opinion, even if she doesn't think she is. She was able to hold out, even when she and her husband had some marital problems. I don't think I could handle both my kid's death AND marital problems at the same time. Life isn't fair, I can accept that, but I don't know if I could handle all of that bull all at once. I now understand that even though I have problems with life sometimes, that I'm lucky that I'm not having to deal with the death of a kid like Elisa. I wouldn't be strong enough for that. I wouldn't even be able to handle having a kid right now in the first place. Elisa now holds a very special place in my heart and I hope and pray that she'll keep being strong and that I hope Zeke likes his pet skunk and balloon in heaven. :) Love ya, Elisa! :D

My Amazing 9th Grade Experience ♥

The first day of my ninth grade year, I walked in through the doors of my new junior high, feeling upset, excited and sad all at the same time. I'd had to leave all of my friends from my former junior high school. I was thinking that this year would be horrible, that I'd be completely miserable the whole year and never make any friends. So I searched the upstairs hall for my locker to stash my things in. Once I had my stuff in it, I walked around looking for my first class's room. When I found it, I walked in, seeing the lights on. I don't know why I did that, but sitting there at a desk across the room was a man named Kip Chandler. He was my Advisory teacher. When he heard me walk in, he turned and asked, "Can I help you?" I answered, "Are you Mr. Chandler?" He smiled and said, "Yes, I am." My friend Chelsi, who was in eighth grade and had also left West Point, was with me. Mr. Chandler asked us for our help stapling some disclosures together for his science classes. We spent until the bell rang doing this. My next few classes were things like Computer Tech, Art, Earth Systems, Algerbra, English, Geography and Seminary. That first day, I saw people that I hadn't seen since sixth grade. I was fascinated at how tall some of the boys had gotten and how gorgeous some of the girls had become. Over the next few weeks, I made some amazing friends. I met a few of my best friends in those few weeks. Tabytha, Sherri, Becka, Seth, Spencer, Sam and Alec were just a few of them. During October, I became very good friends with a boy named Matthew. I loved him to death. I went to his football games when I could and his family even invited me to go to a haunted house with them. In a way, he was the first guy I actually loved. He was the sweetest guy I'd met at the time. At the end of October, he ended up being my first kiss. After that, we didn't see much of each other. I started dating another boy, Michael. I broke up with him after a week after I found out he was cheating on me. I started dating Alec the same day I split with Mike. We dated for about two weeks. I still wonder why I decided to leave him. He was so loving. I sometimes still regret not staying with him longer. We made up eventually, but unfortunately it wasn't until the summertime. My next boyfriend ended up being an eighth grader named Tory. We dated for two months. Then I dated one of my buddies, Spencer. I broke up with him after about five days, since I prefered being his friend. My friends and I had a lot of interesting things happen to us. One thing that really makes me laugh to think about was a certain gym period where we had to do agility exercises. My friends, Tabytha, Sherri and Spencer, were doing the exercises with me. The teacher instructed us to do the army crawl. Girls went first, then we watched the boys do it. Spencer crawled about halfway across the floor and then got up and walked the rest of the way. When he got to us, he said, "There was no way I was going to do that all the way across. I felt like a mentally retarded sea turtle!!!" xD *Sigh* In April,  tragedy struck. My friend JJ, was hit and killed by the FrontRunner. The whole entire ninth grade class was affected. Most went to his funeral. The last day of school, memorable. I went and hung out with my friends for a bit. We signed yearbooks and shirts. When it was time to go home, I walked with my friend, DeAndre. My ninth grade year was certainly memorable, but I am trying to get my head out of the past and focus on tenth grade. Wish me luck! ♥

Scabies..... xP

Scabies...what a horrible thing it is! Scabies is an easily spread skin disease caused by a very small species of mite. Scabies is found worldwide among people of all groups and ages. It is spread by direct contact with infected people, and less often by sharing clothing or bedding. Sometimes whole families are affected. Outbreaks of scabies are more common in nursing homes, nursing facilities, and child care centers. The mites that cause scabies burrow into the skin and deposit their eggs, forming a burrow that looks like a pencil mark. Eggs mature in 21 days. The itchy rash is an allergic response to the mite. Scabies is spread by skin-to-skin contact with another person who has scabies. Pets and animals cannot spread human scabies. It is also not very likely for scabies to be spread by a swimming pool or contact with the towels, bedding, and clothing of someone who has scabies, unless the person has what is called "crusted scabies".

Symptoms

• Itching, especially at night
• Rashes, especially between the fingers
• Sores (abrasions) on the skin from scratching and digging
• Thin, pencil-mark lines on the skin

Mites may be more widespread on a baby's skin, causing pimples over the trunk, or small blisters over the palms and soles.

• In young children, the head, neck, shoulders, palms, and soles are involved.
• In older children and adults, the hands, wrists, genitals, and abdomen are involved.  Prescription medicated creams are commonly used to treat scabies infections. The most commonly used cream is permethrin 5%. Wash underwear, towels, and sleepwear in hot water. Vacuum the carpets and upholstered furniture. Intense scratching can cause a secondary skin infection, such as impetigo, so if you get scabies, try not to scratch too much. :( I have this and it totally sucks. If you get any of the symptoms or are around someone with them, get treatment right away so you don't get them as well! They are beastly! :P Prevent scabies! D:

SPACEBALLS!!!!! and other freaking amazing movies I love! :D

Alright, so here's what's been going on lately, before I totally bore you with a list of freaking amazing movies that I recommend everyone to at least see once! Obviously, I've been hanging with Tyler, that's nothing new. But my bunnies had babies! Yay! There are 4 of them and they are about a week old now. And update on how long me and Tyler have lasted! 4 FREAKING AMAZING MONTHS! Haha. Well now onto the video list! :D

1. Spaceballs!
2. Megamind
3. Wall-E
4. Despicable Me
5. Avatar: The Last Airbender (The new movie, not the TV show)
6. Avatar
7. Jumanji! (OOOOLLDDD movie!)
8. The Uninvited
9. How To Train Your Dragon
10. Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs
11. Twilight, New Moon & Eclipse!
12. All the Harry Potter movies (I haven't seen the 7th one though!)
13. Vampires Suck! (FREAKING HILARIOUS!!)
14. Spirited Away
15. Remember The Titans (Another old movie)
16. Guardians of Gahoole (That new owl movie!)
17. Radio
18. Kiki's Delivery Service
19. Nightmare on Elm Street (The new one!)
20. The Haunting In Connecticut! (Amazing movie!)

Update On My Top 10 Favorite Songs At The Moment!! :D

10. Live Like We're Dying-Kris Allen
9. Down To Earth-Justin Bieber
8. Easier To Run-Linkin Park
7. Waiting For The End-Linkin Park
6. Back To The 80's-Aqua
5. My Mamma Said-Aqua
4. I Will Not Bow-Breaking Benjamin
3. Welcome To The Jungle-Guns N Roses
2. Magic-B.O.B
1. Everybody Wants To Rule The World-Tears For Fears

I freaking love these songs! You guys should check them out! :D They are amazing! ♥

A memoir of my cousin Connor Watson ♥

Connor had always been one of my favorite cousins. While I still love all my other cousins, Connor was the one I would hang out with the most. Whenever we would go to Enterprise, Utah together, we would chase the lizards and catch them. One year, Connor caught a huge one and took it home as a pet! Now every year, I will catch a lizard for him in his memory. I will truly miss him. If you guys would like to, listen to this song. It reminds me so much of him. It's called Tonight  by FM Static. I love you, Connor and I will never forget you.

-Marshelle Howe♥

First post on this blog! :D

Hey guys, this would be the first post that I do on this blog! Hopefully in the future I will have more interesting things to talk about, but for now, I'm just going to introduce myself more. I have used this account before, but I just got really bored of it, so I deleted all my blogs. But now, I've decided that I should give it another go! So now, I will try to blog as much as I can, when I can. I'm pretty busy trying to get my grades up. So I might not be able to get on here everyday, but I'll just have to try. :) I am very outgoing and I can be pretty crazy sometimes. I love people if they treat me with respect and don't pretend to be something they're not. Bad grammar and bad spelling bug the living heck out of me! So I try not to do it myself. I also hate bad punctuation. Haha. I occasionally will use stuff like cuz and OMG and LOL just because it is a lot easier than spelling the whole thing out and people know what it means. But I HATE when people dO tHiS kInD oF tHiNg. It bugs me soooo bad! :P It makes them look very uneducated. Well, now you know a little more about me. I have to go for now, but I will post more in the future. :) Good-bye for now. ♥